RAiNBEAU

Huwag naman sana tayo gawing TANGA

2011-09-13T02:33:00.000-07:00

I was benched here at our office not doing any project when I saw at ph.yahoo.com about the Ms. Universe results. When we are taking our lunch, my fellow officemate/s were disappointed to Ms. Shamcey Supsup's answer. Some says, "Childish" or "Can't comprehend in English, she must ask the help of an interpreter.". For me, it sounds stupid so say an answer like that.

Below is the answer that we were debating on.

Shamcey Supsup's "Answer"

“I would not marry the person I love because the first person I love is my God and the person loves me, he should also love my God,”

source/s:

http://lifestyle.inquirer.net/13765/angola%E2%80%99s-leila-lopes-crowned-miss-universe-2011-philippines%E2%80%99-supsup-is-3rd-runner-up

http://ph.news.yahoo.com/angolas-leila-lopes-crowned-miss-universe-2011-philippines-053003388.html

And Below is the answer that I watched through video-hosting website YOUTUBE and I just transcribed it.

"If I had to change my religous beliefs, I would not marry the person that I love, Because the first person that I love is God, who created me. And I have my faith, my principles, and this is what makes me who I am.

And if that person loves me, should love my God too. Thank you."

source: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rjES0vYnzR0

From what I read and from what I transcribed, Her answers makes sense. For me it is correct. So what's the sense writing it on a blog?

Re-Phrasing must pass some quality assurance that the edited words must have the same thought as the original. But it only applies if the sentence is too long and can be rephrased. But for a conversation to be re-phrased, I guess it's a bad idea because doing so might lose the real thought of the conversation and end up misleading people.

In computer programming, re-phrasing codes means trying to shorten a logic code with much shorter yet same logic and function that the compiler can understand. It enhances the program's speed of processing. But to to it on a conversation, its a different story.

I suggest, next time, just write the EXACT words of the conversation to avoid misleading people. It is the same when quoting Bible Verses wherein it is much better to read the whole chapter than to listen only to a verse to avoid misunderstanding of the holy words.

"Natatanga na nga sa pang-intindi, ginagawan pa ng pampalala ng katangahan."

Binibini Sa Aking Panaginip

2011-09-01T02:03:00.000-07:00

....Sa tuwing Sya ay aking makakasama
Pakiwari ko
ang oras ay humihinto
at ang mundo ay sa amin
Kelan ko ba makakadaupang-palad
Binibini sa aking panaginip?

Being a Teacher in College

2011-07-30T19:23:00.001-07:00

Last night, I watched "Facing The Giants", a movie that is all about teamwork, inspiring young people, changing lives and believing in God's work and plan.

After watching the said movie, I realized that as a teacher for young adults, you are accountable to them. As their 2nd parent in school, it is not just only going to your classroom, discuss the subject matter, administer seatwork, homework, quizzess, written and practical exams, and computing their grades, but also assuring that your students understand the subject matter the way He taps us and told us about the said vocation.

Like preaching His words, a teacher is His instrument. Whether the method is soft or harsh and light or heavy, as long as you are with Him, you pray for your student's excellence and stewardship, guiding them to the narrow path by introducing to them the Light to thier feet, you can assure not just their academic excellence, but also the excellence of His work to them. Together with their academic and His excellence, is the state of being humble and kind to the product of His works.

Im not as good as He taps me to do. But I just realized, even I am not with the vocation anymore, still, He works at me to guide young people at this industry that this is not just a profession, but also a passion.

It a heart-touching and a life-changing movie.

Passport ko...

2011-07-22T07:39:00.000-07:00

Buti na lang hindi talaga yan ang passport ko.

Ang Gago at Bastos ng Football

2011-07-17T09:41:00.001-07:00

Fernando GAGO

at

Michel BASTOS

Cool names, Cool moves. :)

The best thing/s/ in life /are/ ^ "IS WHEN BEING" Free

2011-07-17T09:22:00.000-07:00

After .... (counting) . . . . . .8 years of being "taken" by someone/somebody, its now my time to be alone. ... Well, not that alone.

After 5 months of being almost single, I must say, na-enjoy ko ang kalayaan. May mga pagkakataon na namimiss ko ang buhay na magriring ang cellphone, magbu-buzz ang YM, magbi-beep ang facebook chat, may tumatawag sa iyo ng "baby", "love", "mahal", "honey", "pot", "beb", "porky", "panda", may ka-date pag may bagong movie, kasama sa mga adventures sa provinces, kasamang nanonood ng old movies, kasamang kumamain ng kung anu-ano sa kung saan-saan, may sinusundo't hatid, at kung anu-ano pa, masasabi kong masarap maging malaya, Lalo na siguro sa katulad ko na maraming gustong gawin, pero hindi ko magawa dahil nakatali ako sa konsepto ng "parang may-asawa" na halos. Example, if ever I wanted to be with my friends, ok naman, nagagawa ko, but to be with them for 5 straight days on a trip ay hindi ko magawa, dahil pagbalik ko sa manila, nagwawala na yung isa or hindi pwedeng hindi ka magloload ng celphone credits or else, someone will play jealous about my time or anything that is somewhat eating my precious time in software development and business ventures.Pwede ko naman gawin pa yan lahat, pag maayos na ang mga business ventures ko, lalo na yung software house na pinapangarap ko at muling pagbalik sa eskwela. Ayaw pa nila na stable na ako. Gusto pa nila yung parehas kaming hirap. How should I say this... I'm preparing for the good. Kung trip nila ay bad, I'm not into it.

It is sad and painful at the first months, hindi ka makatulog, hindi mapalagay, what else? Name it. Mawalan ng iilang ventures, mawalan ng kumpiyansa, lahat na. Like I said, name it. Noong una iniisip ang unworthiness. Pero naisip ko rin, anong unworthiness crap? Bakit kamo? Wala na akong pinoproblema. I'm turning back to my old self. Not the bad side, but reclaiming what is lost to me for almost a decade pero mahirap pala magreclaim. So I'll start to 0 uli. pero wala na halos hirap. Sisiw na nga eh. And now, I regained/reclaimed/re-whatever myself.

Kung anu man ang mangyari ngayon sa kanila, I prayed that they would be happy in career, love, family and to all their endeavors, just as what I did and enjoying.

Totoo pala talaga, the best things in life are free. So be free. Kung sakaling dumating ang pang-ilan na nga ba?..... 50 plus? hahaha kidding. walang bilang. nangungulit lang. Going back, kung dumating man uli, edi darating...

Basta katok muna ah...

Busy ako eh. :D

Re-organizing my Business: i-Cad Technologies

2011-07-16T01:43:00.000-07:00

A month, I produced my own Payroll Management System and Employee Attendance Management System. It's a big help when you practice and learn at the same time.

Its July 2011 already, a time to build up my portfolio and line of Information Systems my Software Hut will produce. As of today, we can produce an Information System with a maximum of 3 months. Samples are:

Payroll Management System
Employee Attendance Management System (with Biometric Fingerprint Scanner Soon)
Student Information System
Inventory and Point-Of-Sale System
Laundry Shop Management System
Pharmacy Management System

Also, I must review in terms of Hardware and Networking.

Desktop Repair
Laptop Repair
LAN and WiFi Network Setup

Also my Multimedia Wing.

Web Development and Programming
Animations
Graphics Design
Printing

First things first. Software wing, here we go. I must consult our financier/Corporate Accountant first.

Laptop Repair Experience in Quiapo

2011-06-18T22:40:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, I went to Gilmore, a place where you can find, buy and send to repair a computer because of wide variety of stores and repair shops and low price, to send a tablet computer to a repair shop. Unfortunately, Out of 5 Repair Shops, only 1 tried to repair it but got no luck, giving me an advice not to attempt to send it to repair or it will cost me more.

But I didn't lose hope. Like a person looking for a cure, I have to go for a second opinion. And it will be on Quiapo, the place where other people call it notorious for so many bad reasons.

So then, I started to ride a jeep from PUP to Quiapo, then walk on the underpass then walk until I reached Raon, a street, (as far as I know, the street name is currently Gonzalo Puyat.) known for cheap or quality electrical spare parts, tools, computer parts (that technically don't work), and sports items, etc. Out of 3 repair shops, only 1 tried to repair it and SUCCESS! The technician made it work.

How? Actually, the 2 technicians (from gilmore and quiapo/raon) tried the same approach, by baking the video chip. However, the gilmore guy didn't push the chip down to make sure the contacts will meet. But the quiapo/raon guy, while baking the chip, pushing it down for the board and chip contacts meet. The procedure is expensive due to the payment of place, the expertise, the tools, the electricity, blah blah blah.

Next time, I'll buy my own Aeolus Hot Air Soldering Workstation. I guess it will be much more cheaper than having an adventure. But still, for me, the Quiapo/Raon Computer Technician is much more experienced that Gilmore Computer Technician. I admit, I learned new things in Quiapo rather on Gilmore. I guess its because they are more risk takers to try and try until they succeed or fail. Unlike to Gilmore, maybe, it is more on case to case experience basis and lack of experimentation. I suggest for the Gilmore guys to have R&D like the Quiapo guys. Thanks to Technician Nilo. I recommend him for those who can't find me. LOL. :D

Nangangapa, Nakikiramdam, Nag-aabang

2011-04-28T09:06:00.000-07:00

"Sabi ko nung pinaalis kita, 'Kaya ko ito'.

Sabi ko nung nagmahal ka ng iba, 'Pakialam ko?'.

Sabi ko nung naging kayo, 'Basta ako, masaya ako'.

Pero ang di mo alam, ang sabi ng puso ko noon,

"Ma-pride ka kasi... dapat pinaglaban mo""

-Unknown Quote

Iyan sa aking palagay ang laman ng puso at isipan ko sa mga oras na ito. Mukhang nagkamali akong hinayaan kitang mabitiwan bago ang araw ng mga puso. Oo, naging maayos naman tayo matapos iyon. Hindi ko lang matanggap na dahil lamang sa nakatulugan kita, sa pagigi mong hindi konsiderable, ay tuluyan mo akong binitawan. Kung iniisip mo na kailangan kitang habulin, Oo, naisip ko na iyan. Pero ngayon mo muling ipinaparamdam sa akin ang ipinaramdam mo noong nasa high school pa tayo. Ang pakiramdam na itinutulak mo na ako palayo. Siguro kasalanan ko rin. Pero ngayong nakita kong mali ako, sana hindi pa ako huli upang bawiin ka. Sana'y naman ako makipagbawian at makipagagawan at makipag-kompetensya. Kailangan ko lang ng lakas.

I still ask for signs. I can't understand why God still gave me a yes and wait, if she shows the no. I remember when God gave me before the same response and her answer is a big no when I was in college. I don't know if it will be as same as that. But I'm not assuming. Bakit ba naman kasi ako pumayag.

‎"Don't Let Her Go, Unless You Know For Sure You Can Spend The Rest Of Your Life Without Her."

-Unknown

Kung sino ka mang Unknown ka, Tinamaan ako. :)

Now I can say, kahit anong gawin kong tulak sa kanya palayo at takbo ko para mapalayo sa kanya, I just seeing myself now, coming back to her. And it is the painful part. Kasi I succeeded in making her go away. Pero hindi ko pala kaya na wala siya. I always take one step away. But then I found myself, coming back to her.

I;m ready to fight, but I guess this is the last. If I lose here, I must go. So I have to give my all and give it all to Him for Her.

I love her so much. I miss her badly, sana pwede pa ayusin. sana ako na lang uli yung piliin nya. sana ako na lang.

rainbeau ask: WHY?

2011-02-13T17:29:00.001-08:00

Well, Good day, its been a good day. when my phone beeps, and it will tell me "HAPPY MONTHSARY"! Damn!

So again i'm back on my writing. Well, I don't have anyone to ask for. At the first place I liked this too, so suffer.

May I ask some people who know me. Am I a Failure?

It bad to ask myself or ask God WHY. But I can't resist to ask. I just only prayed for that someone who I will lost the most, and who will love me, a God's Gift, in YFC terms. Maybe this is the 2nd time He ask me to return the "gifts" to him.

If I have to ask, where did I lose the love of those people? I did everything at my will for them to stay. But still, its not enough. Maybe I am like this because it's Valentines Day.

"Sobra kong iniisip bakit. Saan kaya ako nagkamali. Maaring may mali ako, pero saan? Kung parehong dahilan man, hindi ko ba nakita na nauulit lang pala? Ang tanga ko naman. Bakit naman kasi yung mga noon nagpapahayag ng pagkagusto nila, hindi ko pinansin, gusto ko pa ako pa yung lumalapit. Sana noon pa lang nilapitan ko na sila. Sana hindi na lang ako sumugal, sana hindi na lang ako nag-risk. Sana noong una pa lang, pinanindigan ko na lang yung sinabi ko na hindi ako mag-aasawa o makikipag-relasyon. Mambababae na lang ako hanggang gusto ko, magloloko na lang ako hanggang kaya ko. Iniisip ko, bakit yung mga tambay lang, yung mga mukhang sisiga-siga sa kalsada,yung mga sabihin na nating hindi kagwapuhan, anak ng tokwa, magaganda pa ang mga syota, kasintahan, girlfriend, boo or whatever they may call it. Nakakainis, yung mga hindi pa ganun katalinuhang mga tao, letche, may kasama, yung mga hindi ganun katangkaran, potek, may kasama rin, mas matangkad pa sa kanila. Yung talagang sa tingin mo na hindi magkakaroon ng boyfriend or girlfriend, shemay! may kasama, nakayakap pa."

You may call this post a self-pity post. "Eh ano naman? Hindi ako galit sa mundo, hindi ako bitter at hindi ako galit o bitter sa kahit kanino. Okei nga ako ngayon eh. Mas okei pa sa pinaka-okei. Nagpoprogram habang nag-susulat ng blog. panis! Well, to admit, masakit sa ulo. hindi sa puso. Immune na ata yung puso ko sa ganitong bagay, at dahil hindi na sa puso masakit, umaakyat na sa ulo. At iyon ang nakapagpapaiyak sa akin. iniisip ko, sobnag pangit ba ako, ugali man o itsura? inutil ba ako? Nakakadiri ba ako? Nakakahiya ba ako? Hindi ba ako mukhang maipagmamalaki?" Mali ba na nagpagaling ako sa karera ko, kaya ngayon ay mukha akong walking busy person? Naalala ko ang isang post dati, gusto mo bang makipag-palit ng buhay kay irish? ang sagot nya: Ayaw, sobrang busy nyang tao. I admit it. Sana nag-PMA na lang ako, para kung sakaling namatay ako sa labanan, pamilya ko lang nag iiyak. pero napaatras ako dahil sa babae. hahahaha. Magpapari sana ako, pero dahil din sa babae, umatras ako."

"Tingin ko, dapat ko pang ipagpasalamat sa kanila kung nasaan man ako ngayon, hindi ko ito mararating kung hindi ako inspirado sa kanila. Halimbawa noong 2nd year HS ako, sobrang inspirado ako doon sa schoolmate kong nasa Pilot 1, dahil nasa Pilot 2 ako, pasikat, ayun, Nag-Top 1. Noong 2nd Year HS din ako, hindi ko mararating yung lintik na posisiyon ko noon sa Boy Scout at sa TLE at saan pa ba kung hindi ako inspirado sa kanya. Noong 4th Year ako, hindi ako magpapakatino at mapapalapit sa Diyos kung hindi dahil sa kanya. Noong 1st Year College ako, hindi ko malalamang okei naman pala ako (pero still hanggang ngayon doubtful pa rin) kung hindi dahil sa 5 sulat na natanggap ko. Noong buong college years ko, hindi ako magpupursigeng maging isa sa magagaling kung hindi dahil sa kanyang pangungulit na lampasan ang aking sarili. At ngayong nagtratrabaho na ako, hindi ko mapapasok ang academe at industry sa isang taon kung hindi dahil sa mga sermon nya. At itong huli ang namimiss ko ng sobra ngayon."

"Sabi nga sa kantang "Where are you now" ng Jonas Brothers*, "If it doesn't for you I would never be. Where are you now." Haha hindi pala, heto pala yun: "If it doesn't for you I would never be who I am" pala. hahahaha

Sa mga may kasama ngayong araw ng mga puso, "Tang (yung powdered juice) in a Moo (Selecta Moo)", nakaka-inggit kayo. Sa mga walang kasama naman, "Ibuhos na ang beer sa inyong lalamunan, upang malunod na ang puso nyong nahihirapan". At ako? Magpoprogram ako maghapon, magdamag, Ibuhos nyo na, ang projects at technical description sa aking mesa. upang malunod na ang utak kong nagpoprogram.

*nito ko na lang nabasa, Honor Society ang kumanta ng "Where are you now?"

Say Hello to Forever! - My Valentine's Day Message

2011-02-12T01:45:00.000-08:00

It's a little bit sad. Well I cried. Its a normal thing. I don't wanna die with cancer due to this. I'm facing this wall again.

I don't know why... Am I this stupid? Am I reckless? Am I not a person? I don't know. I always ask God why.

As far as I remember, I just prayed for someone who will love me as I am. Well, maybe He answered that prayer beforehand. Maybe I'm sleeping when the answer came to me.

Well, there are answers: the first one came when I was in High School. The second one came when I was in college. I prayed hard for them.

My spiritual adviser told me, its just a yes, a not, or a wait. not bad. the first one, I assumed the answer is a no. the second one, is a wait. When I and the second one became lovers, I assumed that it is a yes. But after a month, the first one came back.

And now, I and the second one broke up for some reasons. Now, I am confused. But still asking God why.

I know I don't have any right to ask him. I know his answers are the best. This scenario that I am going through, I admit, this is emotionally painful to me, I thought crying is just for teenagers.

For someone who is just looking, praying and hoping for someone who will love me, and I will love more than I can give, I hope, that destiny won't fail me this time.

I trust His plans, I just assume that this is a "wait". Happy Valentines to everyone!

Needs a charger, do you have one?

2011-01-20T04:41:00.000-08:00

Since I came to maturity, when I got hurt physically and emotionally, I try not to cry and to forget it all due to the fact that it doesn't make me rich. Not long enough, I mastered the art of letting go. I remember when my third love broke up with me due to misunderstanding. It feels hell to me, but after some weeks, I forget about her totally.

After that, I get a hiatus on having relationship. Well, being on a hiatus doesn't mean not engaging to women at all. Actually, I just don't go with a serious relationship. Flirting, relationships that last for weeks or months was my game. I hurt a lot of women due to this. And also bruised myself unconsciously.

To cut the story short, The first time I felt my heart got tired was when I am on my sophomore years. I got tired of loving people and special persons. Even flirting was out of my scope.

And now, I feel I'm facing it again. If I am to be ask, I don't want to be on that stage again. I might miss everything if my heart feels tired again. It needs to be powered up.

Headache in the Morning

2010-11-18T16:41:00.000-08:00

Last night, I remember to re-design the poster I created for my girlfriend as she passed the Professional Teachers Board Exam because some of the comments of my friends that it is look like a obituary page. But when I try to boot up my workstation at home, BOOM!!! Hardware failure. So I guess my workstation's motherboard or one of my storage medium or my workstation's RAM goes to grave. :-(

Good to have my mobile computer back. But, I have the feeling that I don't be needing that anymore, so I left it at home or I let my girlfriend use it. Maybe because in my next work, I have my own workstation and I will not be using my laptop or I just want to sleep early to start my year right.

Also, I am now accepting Programming Tutorials, for as low as 200 per session. But not yet paid. :-(

My mom used her machine gun again to give us a deadly sermon. Whenever she gave her Sermon, I always remember how my mother is very not supportive to my actions even when I was in elementary... until now. Well I don't know if she just want to teach us to stand on our own, or she just don't want to care for us. Even if she cook or prepare everything, I guess in near time, we have to repay it all. We will, I will.

My girlfriend receives all my heartaches and dilemmas last night, in return, I heard her stories on her childhood days and her full highschool. Now I realized I met my dream girl: the bad and sassy. And we are total opposite. She is the Bad Girl + Sassy Girl and I'm the Good Boy + Bad Girl Killer. Well, I felt we're really meant to be at the first time we met.

I mean, well, back to work.

Console.ReadKey()

Start of Something...

2010-11-16T09:06:00.000-08:00

It's been a long time since my last blogging took place. I don't know why, but I can't sleep. Maybe because of some problems still bugging me. Problems that almost make me lose my grip and make a free fall. Now, I'm trying to re-build anything from scratch.

What a Year, 2010. The year that a mutual love that started from our high school days with my "Best Friend" resumes. Also the year that marks my graduation, and starts my career in the field of IT academe.

Now, as my last days of teaching fast approaching, I have to prepare myself in the field where I belong: IT Industry.

Studying everything I need. Making repairs on my mobile computer, making repair on my life.

Starting to find, the pieces of me.

Starting to blog again, staring to correct grammars.

Shutting Down I-C, Booting Up Rainbeau.

Console.Clear();

Console.WriteLine("Hello Rainbeau!");

Console.Write("Hit any key to Start...");

whatKey = Console.Read();

Console.ReadKey();